Spent a lot of time this quarter hating me. Some frowns, tears, calling people for encouragement. Pathetic. Coming to terms with things I can and cannot do, learning limitations to what I can "pull off", fumbling about--I realize its not that bad things happen to me, its that I deal with them badly. I wish I werent this way. Nothing is good. I cant do this. Never meant that before.

Guichanaso